UPDATE

Well, I got back from the midwife around 2pm. Since they had to squeeze me in I did a lot of reading in their waiting room. The midwife was not able to find a heartbeat. And the ultrasound showed a completely empty sac. No tube even. The sac and placenta kept forming up to 7 wks 3 days but the baby stopped growing right after implantation, they think.

The kids were sad and even asked if they could pray for it to come back to life. Thankfully, I have both my mothers here and they both came to watch the kids. I'm disappointed about what will not be and so is Craig. But I can't even begin to say how much all the prayers have done for me. I always hear people say that they can feel the prayers helping. And I've always wondered if that was true.

I felt peace going to bed last night (knowing someone as far away as Australia would be praying for me while I slept!!). And although I was sad in the office, I know that life must go on. And I can't stop looking at my five miracles. I'm even more astounded that they survived and are here with me now.

Now I just wait for my body to finish and heal. Time to readjust my thoughts and plans for the next several months. I think its still sinking in. Thank you so much for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers.