Tomorrow morning, before the sun wakes, I'll be heading out with Craig on a business trip/vacation. All week I've been looking forward to this get away. I've been dreaming about all the quiet time I will have during the day while Craig is meeting with co-workers. I've been thinking about the fun we'll have in the evenings as we dine and enjoy the city.
But as he was driving off with the kiddies to take them to grandparents' houses, Anna started crying, followed by Kolbe. And I started doubting whether I should leave for so long (5 days). I asked them if they wanted me to drive them to grandma's/abuella's instead of Daddy. They all nodded yes and Sophia started crying. I was on the verge of tears when ......
"Enough!! They'll be fine, Lillian. Now go inside with the baby and let me take them. Say good-bye kids. Tell Mom you love her."
They all waved and the noisy chorus of good-byes and I-love-yous sounded so beautiful.
I miss them already and can't wait until Wednesday. I know they'll be okay but I wish I could have one more day. I should have held them, read to them, and just sat with them on this last day. Instead, we cleaned, packed suitcases, organized school books/schedules (no school holiday for them), and went to see a children's play (
Roxaboxen).
In the past 11 years since we've had children, I've never been away from ALL my kiddos for this long. When I do go for a workshop, swim meet, convention, etc., its never more than a night or two. And sometimes I go alone so Craig can stay with them.
But this time its 5 nights and I'll be with Craig (and baby, of course!!).
Tonight I cry until I know they're asleep. Tomorrow they will wake up excited to be having a long slumber party with their favorite people. And I'll wake up excited to have time to myself and with my sweetie. Bittersweet is the grass on the other side.
Meanwhile, I'm making reservations at Nola's!!! ;-)