I've not been posting because I'm trying to keep my head above water.
Homeschooling is ALOT like swimming. Kindergarten was like learning how to swim in the shallow end. No matter how much people told me kindergarten was easy, I still had to learn how to homeschool one kid ... I had to learn how to swim.
With each grade I've become a better swimmer, but I also keep getting thrown in the deeper end, or I have to learn a new harder stroke.
And so I'm seeing that it doesn't just become easy one day. Sure, I've gained experience along the way, but I'm also a novice in many respects. This is the first year with three pupils. And 4th grade is turning out to be "character building" both for Isabelle and myself!! LOL!!
And so while I love blogging, I think I'm going to have to take a break. Because these past two weeks I've felt like big waves have been pounding down on me. And I really don't want to drown!! So I'm going to focus!!
Waking up early has been a life saver. And my consultant has been more like my life guard. She saved me from throwing in the towel yesterday. How I wish I could just go back and swim in the shallow area, or even sit in the kiddie pool!! Those were the days! I remember longing for the "real" school days where real learning would take place. No one ever told me how hard it would be. How deep the water would be. Its like swimming in the deep and having to hold onto all 5 kids!! I don't want to drop one but I also don't want to take them down with me.
I'm going to try to spend my evenings relaxing. Or listening to Craig affirm me! LOL! He has much faith and confidence in me that I almost believe him. And my consultant is going to have to take me by the hand. Also, I can only succeed with God's grace which means I need to make myself more available.
And bedtime ... I am FINALLY understanding that I'm no longer a college co-ed. I need sleep!! So my normal blogging hours will be spent snoozing!!!
But I do plan to blog on the weekends.
To leave this post on an upbeat manner, last weekend was awesome! It was great to see our cousins and long time friends. It was the reason we moved back. We hope to have everyone over monthly.
Pray for me that I get the hang of it all. Know that I pray for all of you. I think of you all as dear friends!!
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Lillian,
You are doing an awesome job. Yes, every year is about learning new things and integrating that which used to be new. History should show you that you survived and even grew from that which was difficult last year and you will continue to do so this year, and next, and even the year after that.
As far as blogging is concerned, if you are like me, it serves a wonderful creative outlet, but it also can become another thing to do. We can take on too much, even of the good stuff. I have scaled back to posting on Sunday late mornings and if I get one in besides that, it's gravy.
Life ebbs and flows. Blogging comes in seasons as well. Once you start juggling all of these balls with greater ease, you'll pick blogging back up again, or maybe you won't. Find that peace you are looking for and don't take your eyes off of Him.
You are in our prayers, Lillian! As you can tell.... I have decided to take a break from blogging to "attend to my other duties" as well. So I totally understand. Hang in there!
You are such a wonderful mother, Lillian. Your love for children just shines through in everything you've posted here. May God bless you all in your homeschooling and your family life, and may He continue to bless you in your marriage!
Oh, Lillian! Having just started with Kindergarten, I know I'm still in the "kiddie pool", so to speak, but still I feel I can SOOO relate to what you are saying here! My blogging time has also decreased, because, while there is so much I WANT to say, I just can't seem to find the time to do it! Homeschooling, even kindergarten, feels like so much more work than I expected. Or, maybe not so much work, but definitely more time consuming!
God bless you for recognizing that you need more free time for your family. We'll miss you, but certainly can't fault you for investing your time and energy where it matters most! Hang in there, and know that others are thinking of you and praying for you!
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